i reminisced in the earlier post that i decided to post something on general issues rather than my humdrum lifestyle. But after hunting high and low for articles in the newspaper to be brought up here, i found nothing interesting to discuss or penned my thoughts down. So for the mean time i shall just get back to my humdrum life.
Yesterday was spent at SENTOSA as we had the shooting outing. Whole day infact. There were 2 shifts which went there. 1st was 9am and the other was 11am. Cause Zul, Faisal and me wanted bowling. In the end, the lanes were fully booked and we just went CDANS to have our breakfast and bused down to harbourfront. Took the bus down into Sentosa and found them. Soon after, we joined them. Played games for awhile before basking myself in the sun. Then next took a dip into the sea and had captains ball there. Stayed in the water for quite a time before we left the sea to have our evening bath. Once all were set to go, we headed down to vivocity and had dinner. Then bused home. Sebas and me alighted at senja to send jun jie home. Then we had a long route back to our home and along the way we talked about random stuffs. Why this and this are so and so. In fact we envied someone. A guy though. Aint a girl for his ability to be outspoken and daring and easy-going with anyone he comes across with. That was all. Somehow yesterday i was sick throughout. Therefore, i had less talking than usual. Please understand. I dont mean to be anti-social. Sorry for not spending more time talking to you. In fact, i somehow neglected her and saw her lonely at times. Maybe i should be more closed to her in the future outing. I and sebas realised something. When you are in the same environment with your loved ones, you tend not to talk to them for the fear of embarrassment or simply, your mind goes blank and there is nothing for you 2 to chat. Im slow lar. I realised it very late. And please take note my dear friends... when i and my target is there with all of you, i will not be my normal self. Its like being pressurized. And i hate being told what to do. Seriously. I just cant function normally when friends are around with me and my target. that's all. Please understand. Give you one example lar. Just in case you get blur. Take for instance me, zul, faisal and sebastian. When we go out together, we can be high cause we know each other for long already and gotten use to each other's presence. Therefore we can engage in any kind of topics and easy to get along with and just laugh along because we know what kind of person you are after all these years of bonding. Let's twist it abit now. Imagine the 4 of us going out and out of the blue there is another person. Perhaps a lady. 'My' lady ok. You have not gotten used to her presence yet and therefore you tend to be quiet while your other friends are high with her. Then slowly you will be quieter and quieter. That was how i felt yesterday. This was what i told sebas yesterday and he agreed. So maybe we should go out more often and get close first before going out with other friends. Get ourselves comfortable with each other and also in each other presence.
I suggest that we have more of this outing in the near future so as to bond more and see her often. Although you claimed to have lost the feeling, i believe it will re-appear one day soon.
changing the course of my life
into something special...